myblog -march '06

why muslims dont convert to christianity (it carries a penalty of death)

you can even give them gonorrhea and syphilis at the same time (go disney!)

haha i love it when the general eats the birth control pills and says "delicious!"

this here would be the best gift EVER.. man.. man.. (once more) man..

after being horrified by watching a video that was just too intense (and had my heart in my throat) i saw this video.. and man, it was funny..

a video of what could possibly be the best game ever!!! (spore)

what is it about japanese games that makes them soo much fun?? argh! haha (top score: 5899.75.. haha, oh and i hit 100% twice! woot!)

and the blog is... say it with me... archived!!!!!!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY AMORCITA! (thats 1 year and two months of joyous joy that ive enjoyed with all my .. um.. joy!) AI LAF YU BEIBI!

ok, inspired by joelie (who's always there to correct the err of my ways.. which is what friends are for.. trust me, bob was there in my hardest of times, telling me where i was constantly blowing it) i have decided to clarify, for clarity's sake, as to my previous post, before it is taken the wrong way.
let me re-read it to make a more accurate clarification.
haha oh crap, ok, i re-read the first two or so sentences and can see what joelie was talking about. ok, firstly, i want to apologize to anyone offended by my blatant name-calling, i see how what i wrote can be completely mis-understood, and im glad you pointed it out (otherwise it wouldve just stayed that way). ok, so, firstly, what i meant by saying "women are dumb" is mainly, as you well put it, an emotionally charged statement. indeed. i dont actually believe women are dumb. well, at least not any more so than us men. and here's where i clarify my point.
i do not in any way, wait, let me put it in bold, i do not in any way shape or form believe that women are inferior to men. i do not believe that men are to suppress women's self-determination or will. and that, that is where the whole point to my previous point lies. the reason why i said women are dumb, is because of this simple fact that lies in bold above this line. why, if women are not inferior to men, do they continue to place themselves in this position?!?! (great, now im upset once again) women, for some reason (yes, obviously im generalizing, as i dont see it as always being the case.. ) tend to submit to men who do not submit to God. see the problem? yeah, women are, at least in the bible (i have yet to read the whole of the qur'an), in no way obligated to submit to a Godless man. AND THATS WHERE THE PROBLEM LIES!! a man who is not submitting to God, will not treat a woman with the respect and equality and love she deserves (or even doesnt deserve). my rant below was not to attack women, but rather the fact that women dont value themselves, and hence keep getting hurt! my rant below was about me being upset at how many women i care for (or even those i dont know) keep getting hurt simply by, yes, being dumb and getting into relationships that hurt them. im sorry this wasnt clear below, so thanks joelie for giving me the chance to clarify, because this is a very important point for me. like joelie was saying in his email to me, women are equal in value to men, and yes, God established the man as the head, (which means they are the final decision-making part of the two) but the reality of the matter, is that women are the neck (joelie used the word "backbone") and without the neck, (or backbone) the head just topples over. the neck is the support. so a man with a wife that doesnt support him, holey crap, that spells trouble. and a woman with a man who cant make a Godly decision, holey crap, that spells trouble. by the way, and again, to clarify, this does not mean that man makes all the decisions, its sort of like 50/50 (again, as joelie said) however, i dont actually believe its 50/50, certain decisions, man is just unable to make, or will not make, and the woman will make.. its just a fact of life.. but, when there is a disagreement, (that is not a moral issue, and has been biblically cross-checked or whatever is necessary) then the woman should trust the decision-making ability that God has given her husband, and the husband should wisely consider the input his wife is giving him. not for nothing does the bible declare the wife to be the ideal help.. not just "a" help.. or "good" help.. but the ideal help.. which includes decisions..
if you are still reading this, that means you are biblically inclined, as i know feminists would have early into this post blown a fuse.. hah.. thats cuz their pride and lack of self-value and lack of trust in God does not allow them to recognize the balance in a relationship like this. they want to be the female version of "machismo" (male chauvinism). feminism (can we call it neo-feminism from now on?), by the way, is not pro-women.. its anti-men, and anti-women.. since the new wave of feminism began around the 70s i believe, all it has done is destroy families and woman's self image and self worth. its no longer enough that women have been given the greatest gift of all, the gift of life-giving (childbirth), apparently, since this new wave of feminism (cuz im completely in favor of the original movement, the one that gave women the vote among other things that were long overdue) has crept in, women constantly feel oppressed (by whom?!?) and like they are unequal.. which does happen, but seriously? and hilariously, you know who the new oppressed group is? oh man, its hilarious to even say it, white males.. yeah, try finding a job if you are NOT a minority, and NOT female in an "equal opportunity" employer.. equal my bum, since when is offering a lesser qualified worker a job due to their gender "equal opportunity"?? when this was tipped in the favor of white males, we had riots (literally) all over the place, but now, when the balance has tipped the other way? whos crying now? no one.. well, except all those unemployed white guys.. haha.. hmm.. thats not really funny is it..
holey, how did i go off on that tangent.. so yeah, as i was saying, and to conclude, i do not actually believe women are dumb, but man, they sure can do some really dumb, self demeaning things.. which, lets face it, i dont think anyone can disagree.. and guys, seriously, if you read something here that really sounds wrong, dont hesitate to let me know.. chances are, i need to correct myself, and ive battled long and hard to keep my pride in check, so i really wont be offended if someone says i messed up..

man, i really should archive the blog.. heh.. *runs away*

i was going to answer directly in bob's blog.. but then i realized its something i gotta let everyone read, so im telling him to come read it here..

ok, i hope this little text box lets me write everything im going to write (or i might end up writing very little) but yeah, so your blog's popularity has skyrocketed to the point where, now my fiancee is telling me what you write before i get to read it myself.. and as she was telling me about this post, i told her "man, you women are soo dumb" seriously.. the more i think about it, the more i know why God made man the head of the woman.. and thats cuz women are just plain DUMB! as if daniela is with some guy who is putting restraints on her friendships! (being jealous, by the way, is the result of lack of trust.. lack of trust, is not what you want to be basing your relationship on) and heres why i said that women are dumb.. and thats cuz they keep getting in bad relationships with stupid guys and they feel that their feelings are completely noble, and they are doing the right thing, cuz the guy is "just too cute" or whatever stupid thing.. it bothers me, it bothers me greatly, because, HOLEY CRAP! WOMEN!! stop griping then about your abusive husbands, if you dont leave him, then its your own damn fault! if you get stuck with some guy who doesnt love you, its your own damn fault (obviously this applies to men too.. but for some reason, its not generally men that get stuck in these relationships.. ) ive known daniela for a while now.. longer than bob has.. i was stuck in a sort of similar situation with her too.. i had feelings for her, but she liked someone else, so i never told her.. i then put my feelings in check, and that was it, but then she went off with some other guy!! i mean, what the crap is that?? i choose her as an example, because this happened to me, shes not the only girl in the world to have ever done that.. but then girls seem to be devastated when they end up with some dumb jerk (and all the consequences it brings) instead of even making the most measly attempt and praying for that guy whose done nothing but respect her and treat her with care and love for the last, what, 2 years? since theyve known each other?? (and by the way, if you refuse to pray about something, it means that you dont care what God's will in regards to something is.. and guess what all that can bring.. )
see, this is the problem, girls (and guys too) seem to want to date.. they are not looking for a husband, they are looking for a trophy, or a "right now".. well, if you dont demand the best, dont expect to end up with the best. me, after her, i realized this.. and i stopped thinking about girls in that way.. i slowly started to see that, its either all the way, or not at all.. so thats why my fiancee is also my first (and only) kiss. yeah, im 23, and my first kiss was at 22, and ive only ever kissed a single girl. im also getting married in 4 months (wooo!) but why? because i held out, i said, "if i want to end up with 'the' one, im going to have to wait for 'the' one".. and wait i did.. but people these days dont seem to care about waiting, theyre too busy trying to make out with everything that has a pulse to care about the consequences (and im talking about emotional consequences, not just the obvious diseases and stuff.. )
so what am i so mad about?? the fact that daniela (whom i care greatly about) would be soooo incredibly blessed to end up with a guy like bob, and shes just throwing it away because.. well.. i dont even know why the hell she is!! and now, to stop hanging out with him because she feels it might make her no-bo jealous?!?! that is the most ridiculous thing ever!! i havent talked to her in a while, but im sure if i asked her if they are planning on marrying, her answer would be "no"..
girls, if you dont value yourselves, do you seriously think whoever you end up with will have a reason to do so? do you seriously think that if you settle for anything less than the best, you will end up with anything other than not the best? seriously people, start getting your act together..
and as a sidenote, remember, repentance means "to change your ways from bad to good" and that is how we accept Christ.. ie, how we become Christians.. if you have not CHANGED YOUR WAYS.. you have not repented.. and hence.. yeah, you see where im going with this?

wanna know how we can change our world?? listen to what this colombian guy, who used to be an assassin has to say..

oh goodness, why must everything be such a crap?!? im now using firefox 1.5 (yeah, no link, cuz it sucks) and every time i try to load a page now, for some reason nothing happens.. and yet, it says "done"... after some messing around, i realized that resizing the window makes the page appear.. i mean, what the crap is that?? ugh.. why is it that the more technology improves, the worst it gets?? does humanity not realize that their own efforts will get them nowhere?? how do they not see that?? (yes, im of course talking on spiritual terms) humanists and atheists and the like, all think humanity is the best, that our knowledge of stuff is incredible, that we keep "progressing".. holey crap! how stupid can you be?? are you THAT ignorant that you choose to ignore soo much of the world's history, and past examples that you cannot see that humanity is in NO WAY improving the world we live in?? the more we take steps away from God, (which is what is going on in the world today) the worse the world gets! ugh!! seriously, columbine anyone?? all the school shootings didnt just happen to coincide with the US government banning school prayer.. you kick God out of your schools, He wont force Himself into them.. but that also means, He will not be there to prevent stuff like godless kids with guns..
seriously, if we dont get our act together, there will be nothing left to salvage.. can we start by outlawing abortions?? since when is a child guilty of their parent's "mistakes"?? (either one of them) its like my mom coming over to my house and killing me, because I am "changing" her life, and she has a right to lead her life the way she wants to. yeah, thats exactly what it is! or are you the type who says its not a human until its completely out of the womb with umbilical chord cut and tied?? yeah, theres people who hold the position that, if the baby still has parts inside the womb (though it may be crying and breathing) its still a candidate for abortion, because, well, it hasnt been born yet. seriously, people are so ridiculous.. and the worst, so hypocritical.. ugh!
if you people can vote, get out there and do so, make a stand against genocide, and stop standing by doing nothing thinking you cant make a change.. it was gandhi who said it best when he said (and i think ive already posted it up here somewhere):

"be the change you want to see in the world"

so, go! be that change!!!!

hahaha this is my friend ricardo from colombia.. hahah.. and he wants a friend! (im not even joking.. thats really him!)

wooowww a binary wristwatch!! how coooL!

ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! only 2 minutes left!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

only 23 minutes left!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(12 hours left.. yeah, the server clock is behind by an hour.. )

and you know what? i think my eyesight has improved since i started my fast.. im not even joking.. for months now i thought my blood sugar level was too high (there were days when all i had to eat was cookies and other sweet stuff) and i started worrying i might get diabetes.. and then joelie told me that one of the signs of diabetes is that your eyesight starts to deteriorate.. and thats when i really began to worry.. so ive been trying to regulate my sugar intake.. which is really hard by the way.. but yeah, ive had to start using my glasses now in class.. just so i can read what the prof is writing on the board.. but these days that ive been fasting.. ive found that i can read a lot better even without my glasses.. man.. its awesome!..

is it wrong that i keep smelling food and looking at food and thinking about food all the time?? haha.. man.. im soo hungry.. and weak.. mmm.. lasagna... mmmmm

closer.. closer.. just 28 more hours.. and then...... mmm.. food.. mmmmm.. fried eggplant.. mmm.. lasagna.. my FAVORITE.. mmmm.. perogies you say?? ohhh yes.. even perogies if i like.. mmmmmmm

ok, sorry for the lack of updates, but theres been a lot going on.. mainly? im in the middle of a 5 day fast. a friend asked me "fasting of what?" so i feel compelled to specify. food. yes, so im not eating for 5 days only drinking water.. however, i did break fast at 1am sunday after only the first day.. the reason is because i thought my blood sugar level had gone down.. i got dizzy and weak and cold and started sweating like mad and and.. so i asked samo to give me candy or something... and he gave me a chocolate.. which made me feel better for about 3 seconds.. then, i threw it up.. and all the water i had had.
but it doesnt make sense that someone who's fasting should be throwing up.. if anything my body shouldve happily absorbed the food i was giving it.. after a while i realized it wasnt because of my fast.. but rather probably because i had eaten some *cough*expiredfood*cough* on friday night before i started my fast. well, at least thats the "secular" explanation.. for me, the reason was abundantly clear.. you see, when you fast, at least in a spiritual context, you have a purpose.. its not just "not eating".. its "not eating so that.." dot dot dot.. theres a purpose in fasting.. ive fasted before.. for 5 days.. and no problem. but, what i was fasting for wasnt really all that drastic.. this time however.. theres a spiritual battle being unleashed here.. and i think (and firmly believe) that thats what was happening on sunday.. which is why i also believe that i threw up. why? because it was sort of like God saying to me "hey, you dont need food, this isnt about the food.. this is a battle going on.. youre going to feel terrible, because your body is the battlefield." made perfect sense.. especially considering what i was fasting over.. ask me if you really care to know. but yeah, so now im at day #3.. and by wednesday midnight i should be done.. but today.. man, i looked at myself in the mirror.. holey, if i didnt have images of christian bale in "the machinist" when i did.. haha (reeeeeally good movie too, i definitely recommend watching it.. ) yeah, not so drastic but still.. i was shocked.. my bones were a bit more pronounced, and some flesh i used to have covering certain areas of my body (mainly my thorax) has now decreased to just being skin..
by the way, i am one of those people who believe that fasting is one of the most powerful weapons God has given us as humans in the spiritual battle.
if theres anything you know needs to be changed, or that you really care about.. i would definitely suggest fasting over it.. for example.. a cousin or.. whoever.. but like.. a cousin would be a good example.. (hehe.. i think the person im throwing that at knows its for them.. to all others of you.. you can substitute "cousin" for.. "dad", "mom", "brother", "larry" err.. yeah, whoever you care about.. )

man, i cant believe it, i just pooped what could be the longest poop ever! seriously i got up and was like "holey! that doesnt even fit there!" it was about a foot long.. more actually! and thats not all.. i wiped, and *poof* it was a kleen poop! unbelievable. unbelievable.