myblog -january '05

A major - you love to live life to the full. You
have a vibrant social life and are not afraid
to take life as it comes. You are content,
bright and often spontaneous.

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why your mom told you not to bite your nails.. they might go up into your head!

congratulations to uncle bob!!!!!!

test your british history knowledge (i got 7 right.. and im not even british!! )

when donating to tsunami relief, be careful what browser you use, you might get arrested...

someone congratulate me!!!! today marks a big day in the life of insaner.. yes, thats right, at long last, and after years of waiting, the insaner has geef!!!!! mark this day ladies and gentlemen.. watch out!! the moon is falling!!!

" If you always do what you always did, you'll always get what you always got"

"bang ming yu" --samo

bisch e dreck settl!

"if you were perfect, what would i fall in love with?"

this is a very important blog post. please read.
today, i reached a milestone in my life. so many things i had whirling in my head, sooo many things. i just cant express them all. certain worries, certain uncertainties (gotta love the wording), feelings, and just events in my life. not bad things, just, stuff that had me under a lot of weight, slowing me down, making my whole body ache under the strain. 2004 was a good year, albeit a hard one, in many senses, but most importantly a year where i learned very important lessons spanning across 2003 and 2005, the surrounding months within. i think the most important thing this past year, has definately been the people that are a part of my life. this year, i told my father i loved him. probably for the first time in my life. that would be important enough in itself. but most importantly, is the fact that i do. coming to the point in my life where i stand back and say "i love my father" crap, it still gets to me. im on the verge of tears as i write this, just thinking about it. but theres a lot to go here in this post. as a matter of fact i think im going to move to a text editor so i can save and not lose what im writing (power failure).
in this year, i have lived through certain things that have shaped how i see the world a bit. mainly, and most importantly, how i see people. or at least certain people. those close to me. God definately revealed stuff to me in this last week that He had been storing up for me for a loooong time. and well worth the wait. important things, such as faith and the patience that springs forth from it. in just trusting him this whole year, despite all my worries, i think ive gained one of the most important things He will ever give me.
this body is going to rot and turn to dust. my soul, that is what i have to make sure is intact. i understand now, due to events this week, that the importance of taking care of your body has nothing to do with your body. but rather, everything to do with your soul, your spirit, because, your body is where you carry yourself. you take care of your car, not because your car is worth a lot of money, but, because it is the vehicle that will take you places, and you need it all to be in working order so you can go to those places, so that you are safe travelling in it. you take care of your car, because you care about the contents that car carries, but once that car is gone, its gone, but you continue. i took care of my body not because its valuable, but because its contents are valuable. i understand that today like i never did before. i am valuable.
at the risk of going on till the sun doth shine, and i have to run to class, not having done any of my assignments, i will cut this short. the points necessary to be noted already present. but before i press submit, i have to ask, if you are going through some problem, you feel your faith is shaky maybe, or, you realize you have no faith, then this is the time where you should say to God "Lord, you are sovereign over everything, if you could create earth and everything i see and more, then how much more can you do for me, your beloved creation! i trust in you, i trust that you can, and i release the burden from myself, and load it all to you." and just hold on. (this assumes youve already accepted Christ as your only Lord and Savior, having died for your sins, and risen on the third day, paying for them fully, your repentance, and your asking God for forgiveness of said sins.. without this, you already know by now, there is no free communication with God, right? cuz God cant be where there is sin, and hence cannot hear the sinner's prayer, lest it be the one where he repents.. but this should be common knowledge by now)

2004 how shall i remember thee? with solemn recognition.

man, i, need, sleep, but, i, cant, cuz, theres, so, much, i, must, do.

these past 3 days have been amazing.. just.. plain.. amazing.. thank you Lord. despite my stomach bug (whatever it was) that made me feel like not getting out of bed for 2 days, and led me to withhold eatage for that long.. it still has been probably the 3 most amazing days ever. i love spaghetti :)

a view into the past, and into the future.. (sooo kewl)

(04:04:04) insaner: i love bread man
(04:04:18) oleg: lol
(04:05:08) insaner: ima get more
(04:05:32) insaner: i had forgotten how much i am in love with the wheatie derivative
(04:10:35) insaner: holey moley
(04:10:39) insaner: i could eat bread allll day
(04:10:50) insaner:
ode to bread:
to you bread, i bring forth this ode
for in my life, i love you so
my nights you fury with your non-haem iron
my mornings you lift up with sweet aroma
for even in his jail cell, the poet byron
could only ask his jailer for your persona
with butter, margie or pb and j
whole wheat, cracked or plain
you do make my life so great
in my hunger, spare me from being dead
oh sweet sweet
delicious
bread

"be aman, doodah rye fing!"