myblog -september '03

whats the purpose of a dolphin?? or was it porpoise?

"In the tiny, almost invisible thirty two cell blastocyst--in that one gram or so of tissue--there is a physical potential and moral destiny unparalleled in our universe. Next to it, a gram of plutonium is a triviality: plutonium cannot compose a symphony, cannot cure cancer, cannot plan our course to the stars". -Bernard Nathanson, M.D. and former abortionist-

read some more about abortion, and why it is wrong.. especially if you think it is right..

hahahaha:

"Linux: Telling Microsoft 'where to go today' since 1991!"

well, friends, lads, and lasses (bet you didnt know those two were related, eh.. ohh dear, it is contagious!!) my site seems to have lost ssi's, to me, that means a LOT of effort to change all the files and links.. to you, that means the site looks white, and is missing the menus, and title, and a bunch of other stuff.. i apologize for this, my stupid host decided to migrate servers and change how stuff works in the process.. stupids.. its just one line in the server config file, and my site would be working as normal, but nooooo..

"... we're sorry for the inconvenience.."

indeed.. pfft

update: the trip went well, save for an episode where i fell asleep and upon waking up i had the worst pain in my upper left (my left) gum i have ever felt.. it was soo painful that after a while it just went numb.. it was inexplicable why it should have hurt so much.. but it did.. everything else went well..
the first night i slept on the floor tho, no bed.. but the room was quite spacious, quite indeed.. i think its the biggest room ive ever had!
ive been surviving almost solely on apples and rootbeer (zarza) and soy cookies.. i did have a slice of pizza i was given by one of my new roommates.. he lives in the room below me..
i still dont have my computer operational tho, i need a monitor, and those things dont come cheap y'know! but im hoping to have one soon.. lets see.. what else.. um.. nop.. oh yeah, i need batteries for my alarm clock, i still dont know what time it is when im home.. and.. um.. yeah.. i think thats it.. *leaves*

and here is a big greeting to some special (or as one of them would say, "shpecial" jan!!! hahah "ssssi!" "ssssi!" "BATman!" "BATman!" "ssssi!" hahah.. BATTLEFROGS!!!) people..
natalie, paula (si, si supe quien era.. ah, la impresione, verdad! hehe), andrea, e IAN!! muchos salutations! oder soll ich auf deutsch schreiben?? wie geht's euch? ihr koennt mir auch ein email mal schicken! es waere schoen, wenn ich von euch auch was hoere! warum sind ihr nicht jetzt was lernen? renegados!! hehehe.. also dann, ein gruss an alle, und hoff' von euch was hoeren! und ein schoener tanz (wie in die fest (heheh)) und ach, ja, avril hat mir gesagt, dass ich euch ein gruss von ihr geben muss.. hahah.. siiii claaaro.. ok.. debo empacar, saludenme a carla, y cuidenme a iansito, no lo arun~en.. pobrecito.. hehe.. jjjjjjjjjjjjaaaaaaaaaannnn!!!

so, sunday was the first time i ever cried of happiness... this (year) is like the first time i have been truly happy.. "but why are you happy, arent you leaving??" yes! but im happy because i realized on sunday that there are people who really really care about me! who care about me so much that it hurts them to see me leave! people not of my famliy! ive never had a group of people care this much about me.. EVER!! and when i went and stepped in front of everyone at church, to announce my departure, and i came to this realization, it just really touched my heart in a place that.. well, was almost unkown to me, and i broke down right there.. i couldnt hold back my tears as i expressed how much this group of people meant to me, and when i saw that it was reciprocal (everyone came up to me, also crying) well, i just couldnt stop.. ive never been appreciated this much, never been, yes, truly loved by so many (or anyone).. you know, for all those of you anti-christian fanatics.. you dont know what you are missing out on, and when someone says that someone who does not love the Lord, cant love you, and you roll your eyes.. well.. i dont know what to say to you, except, i hope one day you too can experience the real Love, the one that comes from our only Lord and Savior.. then, and only then, will you truly know what love is.. and i know exactly how i sound.. and unless this were all true, and unless the love i experienced here was true, then i would not be writing about it.. but seriously, ive never before been sad to leave somewhere.. but this time, well.. its just soo great to look back and see the crap of a life i used to lead, when i said i was a christian, and wasnt, and all the stuff that was going on in my life, because i had not ever repented.. but the day i did, no literally, the day i did.. my whole damn (no pun intended) life changed!! and i have never been this happy, and my whole outlook on life is different.. and.. i goto sleep happy every night.. as opposed to cutting myself with scissors (which i used to do.. before i was a christian) and, well, its sad to see people not accept something so true, so positively life-changing as this, simply because of what others say!!! its sad really.. and stupid of others like that.. you know what ghandi said? "i would accept christ.. if it wasnt for all the christians.." can you believe that?? what is the best enemy technique? to infiltrate your lines posing as friendly (we all know the "spy" concept well..) so if you see someone who isnt acting like christ himself.. he is not a christian!! no matter what he says! hey, if i say im black, am i black? (ps, no, im not black..) NO! such is it with, well.. everything else! ok, whatever.. i just tangentized (havent done that in a while.. hehe) from my overflowing happiness.. i just want others to know that "thats life" is not true! you DONT have to live a bad life and take it because "thats life".. thats not life.. thats "life without God"!! and there is a solution to that.. and i took it.. and well, here i am! :D ok.. must start packing now.. i leave in about.. 5 hours!!!!!! ah!!!

what the FUD??

yeah, but where does the name ottawa come from? well..