myblog -april '02

Tuesday, April 30, 2002

[22:58:17]

man... i just wish i was loved.. by someone... anyone.. and you know, all those places where you would expect it from, all those places where you would run to when in need of it.. those are the places i get kicked in the teeth at.. it wears me down.. i can take it, i know it, but its still not something i want to be going through.. and you know its bad when you hear good news and it doesnt affect you much. today for the first time in a looooong time i heard something really great, the girl that could plausibly be the girl said, and i quote "i would date you" man, this has to be one of, if not the largest ego strokes i have ever received in my life.. and yet, this emotional black hole i am in managed to suck it all up and render it non-existing... its so weird.. i should be running around in place yelling like a 12-year-old hearing his hot teacher thinks he's "cute", and yet, i feel almost nothing.. i dont wish this on anybody. im just glad im a tough ass mutha-f and i can take this crap, i guess im just used to it. dont ask "what is it this time? what happened?" nothing "happened", its just that i wish someone loved me.. anyone... and its just such an impossible thing to ask for.. its depressing.. i guess i'll just have to make due listening to atomic kitten and mandy moore songs... they make me feel.. "special" and not in a sick perverted way either.. in like a 12-year-old depressive kid way... *sigh*
man, you people must be sick of reading my crap.. ahh well.. noone is holding a gun to your head, well.. except for that guy in texas.. sorry jake, i need at least one reader.. and hey, at least youre getting fed, and dog food isnt all that bad.. ive had some.. it tastes just like old bread.. i dont think you have much to complain about.. and dont forget what happens if you do........

Monday, April 29, 2002

[2:15:38]

you know what i find really frustrating to the point of exhaustion? when stuff doesnt werks.. you know?? like software and stuff like that.. it soooo tires me.. i was writing up a post in a different browser (meaning, in a browser other than opera) and then the browser decides to crash, and the post is unrecoverable, now, i have a habit of saving long posts as i write them, but, in this case, the post wasnt long at all (at that point) but now that its lost, i cant remember how i had phrased certain things and.. ugh, it just sooo makes me mad.. well.. not "mad", just, well.. you know, "annoyed"... anyhooze, i'll post it up later... theres also a long post about to come.. and the vote script is almost finished...(yeah, thats what he says..)

Sunday, April 28, 2002

[2:35:30]

ohh man does pink RULEZ!!!!

Saturday, April 27, 2002

[20:11:58]

make of this what you will, but its still quite.. yeah, i guess, "intriguing" is the word..

[5:09:39]

went to see "panic room".. it was entertaining.. not what i expected, but it was enjoyable... but thats not the highlight.. oh no no no no... as we were entering the theater we saw this unbelievable chickie!! leaving. i was like: *jaw drops* and so we go in, find our seats.. and as the movie is about to begin, yeah, you guessed it.. she was sitting right next to us!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ohh MAN she was such a chickie!!! *keeps on staring into space and thinking about the chickie*

Thursday, April 25, 2002

[23:45:50]

today i had one of those weird dreams, the kind that only I could possibly have.. it was a very extensive dream, all my immediate family appeared, my mom, dad, sister and brother.. but thats not the weird part.. ohh no, ohhhhh no.. i dreamt that i was taking care of myself.. and by "taking care of myself" i mean, i was there, and i was taking care of another me, when i was waay younger.. it was like when you are taking care of your younger siblings, or babysitting for the neighbors, only, the baby is you! man, if that was ever a weird dream to have.. no, just try to picture it.. youve seen baby photos of yourself, now imagine if one of those photos came alive, and there was this younger version of you, crying and walking around... and you having to take care of it!!! yeah, that was what my dream was about.. man, some freaky stuff i tell ya.. it also reminds me of something... but.. you know.. its "inappropriate" (as if that word has any meaning to me...)

[1:42:36]

whats wrong with this picture?

[1:29:10]

hey, you know those aol cds?

Tuesday, April 23, 2002

[23:40:55]

i have slept 1 hour in the last 30.. i woke up at 6pm yesterday, couldnt sleep that morning, decided to take a nap at midday, but had to wake up at 1 to goto this thing, and im still awake.. im starting to feel like my self-concious is peeling away from my body when i sway from side to side.. like in those silk/underwater commercials.. where my "conscious being" is the silk, and my body is.. well.. the body.. its very surreal... *sways from side to side while his eyes droop and wiggle around and his lips peel open like off a banana*

[3:05:44]

that weekend trip, part 2 (yeah i know.. i know.. its been two weeks already.. but, you know, time doesnt exist.. so.. yeah..)
so we get on the road, reminisce a while, and i chat a bit with that other girl i just met.. and then.. first border crossing.. "umm guys, i have news.. i.. uhh.. forgot my passport..".. so we were a bit, well, i dont think "tense" applies correctly.. but thats the word i'll use.. when crossing the border.. luckily there was noone there so we were relieved... as amof, there was never anyone there checking the border... it was like the border police were on vacation.. hahah.. on the other side of the border?? hahah.. (ok, so its not that funny.. so what?)
we got to the house (after dropping off the girl i just met) and went straight to the kitchen, where i got offered some food.. (YAY!) i had me some cereal.. its been sooo long since i had cereal... i had me some delicious smacks and then smacks with milk.. mmmmmm... so goood.. and then i was "showed to my room" and then it was lights out.. of course, as i stood there in my room, alone, i got the "urge".. and i realized i hadnt been told where the bathroom was!!! (this can only happen to me...) and now, i had to go.. and i didnt know where the bathroom was, and i couldnt go out in the dark in search for it, (i didnt want to "stumble into" somebody's room.. considering i didnt know the family) and i wasnt going to turn on the lights and search for it either, (i didnt want to wake up the entire house while the little baby has to go and find a bathroom to do his peepee..), so i decided to wing it, hold it back and hope i could fall asleep soon and the urge would leave on its own.. luckily, it did.. and i was soon woken up by someone barging in my room looking for something or other (i guess thats what their intention was) "good morning" i said.. but i cant much remember whether i got a response or not.. who cares anyways, i fell back asleep soon.. i had had a dream previously (before i got woken up that is) that i had been in some strange house, and i had wanted to go pee, but the bathroom had a window that led straight to the kitchen, so anyone who was in the kitchen had a clear view of whoever was at the toilet (yeah, i know..) and then there were these two guys there who wouldnt let me pee cuz they just stood there in the bathroom looking at me, and i wanted some privacy and i tried to get them out and close the door but they just stood there.. so then i left the house and i was in this alley, and then i was on the rooftops and there was this black crow on one of those metal chimneys.. and then i dont know what happened, i think i flew away or something weird like that... its all a blur what happened next.. and of course i was then woken up..
so eventually the family left for their vacation, and i arose like a phoenix from the ashes.. or at least a really sleepy guy from bed.. had me some breakfast with my friend, and then we left to goto somewhere or other.. ohh yeah, to pick up the other friends.. (girls as well..) then the girls we just picked up notified me that i was to act as a technical engineer since the next girl had not been able to rig up the car to get the convertible part to work.. "now we'll see if men are really good for something..." the pressure was on.. i knew i could do it tho.. it didnt sound complicated.. how they had not managed to pull it off on their own, well, i ignored that fact.. so we get to the place, and we get offered cake and stuff.. mmmm.. cake... and then we get to the garage.. i sit in the driver seat, and unhook one thing (which the girl said you had to do) and then pressed one button and got the hood to go back.. yes, ladies and gentlemen, yours truly has upped the score to "men 1, women.." ehh.. you know.. however many points women have... and then we hit the city...
so, one more border crossing... but this time we took the "illegal" way in.. in the sense that we went in through a way that has no customs control.. so we were ok... actually, now that i remember we two went back to the house and later went into the city, where we would meat the others at some given store.. and so we went, and met up with them.. then we went to a different part of the store to see something, and when we got back.. no girls.. oh-oh... we must have spent a whole hour looking for them.. and nothing... so we left the store (yes, it was that big...) so we walked around the city a bit.. (half an hour or so..) and then we just found them outide some "eating place".. doing just that.. and we were like "hey! we've been looking all over fer you!!" to which they responded: "so have we!" which i doubted.. but then we went to some internet cafe.. (they wanted to check their mail and what not) and then we went somewhere else, and then something.. something *gets distracted* ... yeah and then we went to pick up that other guy and his girlie at the station.. went back home.. all of us.. which totalled something like 9 people.. or more like 7.. just that, not in the same order.. so there were just 4 of us at the house first.. so we decided to go jumping on the trampoline (yay!!) it was cool.. and did i mention that they were all referring to it as "an elastic bed".. (*nods in innocence*) i dont know.. i dont know... so, eventually the others arrived and we pigged out on some pizzas.. and by "pigged out" i mean we all had roughly 3 slices apiece.. yeah.. we ate like pigs.. well.. it was almost 10 of us.. or more, like 8... so it did divide up real quick... then the girls "excused" themselves while they got ready.. and something like 3 hours later.. (roughly..) they were all ready to leave.. so at about 11pm we were leaving to go out.. cross the border again... and arrive at some "really cool club" they were pushing for all of us to goto..
so we go, and ok, we get lost.. again.. we caused some minor traffic disturbances.. (ohh, you should have seen what happend..) and then we got to a small street where we were to go in.. but apparently the car in front had stopped there.. and after a while, we realized it was also not moving.. and when cars behind us started moving on ahead.. we started to get a move on it.. but.. everytime the other girls tried getting the car out (it was sandwiched between us and that other car) a car in the opposite direction came and forced them to move back in.. and so on until finally we were free.. and then got to the club's parking area.. and here we had to wait a while.. the parking area was full and we had to wait for a car to leave to be able to get in... and so after some 15 minutes we were finally in the place.. so the car is parked and we walk to the entrance.. the bouncer points at my friend (who was standing in front of me) and motions that we cant get in.. i was thinking.. what in the hail?? why cant she get in because of her belly button piercing.. (or something like that.. i understood it was due to something to do with her belly) i later realized it was me who couldnt get in... because i was wearing informal shoes... *rolleyes* so we two decided "screw this, lets go back home.." and so we did, and there i started watching "primary colors" until they called us up to come back for them.. so we did, and then came back.. and then half the people went to one place and the other half came with us.. which was me, my friend, two more girls, and the guy and his girlie.. so we prepared for sleep, and i got room-switched, i was now to sleep upstairs, in the little girl's room (from the family to whom the house belonged) and as i was getting in bed i found a "winnie the pooh" book and began to read it.. apparently, this was amusing, and the girls began to laugh.. and later asked me if i would read to them... so i did.. hahah.. i read them a bedtime story.. it was soo funny, it was like i was the dad and they were all my children and i was reading them a bedtime story.. hahah.. they even asked me to show them the pictures and everything.. hahahah.. considering how old we all are.. this was extra amusing.. and before i finished the book they had all nodded off, so i turned off the light and went to my room.. hahah.. it was soo funny.. the next morning they had a large tub of spaghetti and we ate till we were do full we couldnt move.. and boy was it good... mmmm.. we then hit the city, did some walking, some touring, some chatting, and then the guy and his girlie had to leave and then a while later i had to leave...
while we were waiting for my train, they were like "you're good people" (or something to that effect.. i cant really translate it correctly) and i was like "thanks" *awkward silence* "where is that train????" hahahah.. and then we laughed.. "you guys are cool too.." and then i caught my train and came back home... it was a pretty cool weekend..

Monday, April 22, 2002

[23:30:22]

i took a personality test the other day, somehow, the results just dont seem right.. i also noticed how they seem to be missing "manic-depressive".. which i'm almost sure i used to suffer from...

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
-- Click Here To Take The Test --

how did you fare??

[23:15:22]

have you noticed how the world seems to be going to hell in a handbasket? i wonder what this all means...

Sunday, April 21, 2002

[1:20:37]

i had just met this girl the other day, and she hadnt been there more than 2 hours, which was also the first time i saw her, EVER.. or talked to her or.. *goes on..* and we mindliked TWICE!!! i also mindlinked once with this other girl ass well.. in that same period of time, and in the same situation (ie, didnt know her etc...).
this motivated me to coin a new term, its an expansion of the glorious "mindlink", i call it: "the fresh-mindlink", as a reference to minlinking with a fresh mind... and so, i may say that that day, in a period of less than 2 hours i had 3 fresh-mindlinks.. not bad for a single day's worth of events...

Saturday, April 20, 2002

[1:52:38]

went to see ice age. official "review"? slapstick comedy going for the cheap laugh, good rendering and scene placement conception. verdict: a movie directed towards the younger/simpler minded, but not in any way "unenjoyable" by anyone else. if you get bored watching kiddie movies/cartoons, dont go watch it. if you enjoy watching cartoons and so on.. (go dexter!!!) you will enjoy this movie, i just wish i hadnt gone to see it expecting "toy story" or even "a bug's life".. and the trailers are spoilers.

Thursday, April 18, 2002

[23:19:19]

ok people, time to use yer brains.. i know i know.. "but insaner, we dont like to use our brains!!" well, its time you started to.. by this, i mean the following, i recently stumbled upon a parody site making fun of baptist christians.. now, i myself am not a baptist, but i found this site very offensive, not because of its parodial nature, but because many people trying to find information about baptist/christian beliefs might stumble upon the site and take it fer true. and since its a parody site, well, needless to say, its not representative of those beliefs.. so what i ask of you, is to not believe everything you read on the net. yes, you may hear this a lot, but how many times have you read something about other religions, and believed it? how many people believe that islam says its ok to commit suicide?? were you one of them? see what i mean? just because you hear something somewhere doesnt make it true.. at all.. EVEN if the source is CNN or some newspaper or science journal.. how many people believe in the big bang? and you know that its occurence cant even be proved!! and yet, people take it as the complete truth!! how many people believe in the evolutive origin of man??? and yet this, too, has yet to be proven.. but people believe it because some scientist once made an educated guess which sounded right, published it, and then people continued to repeat it??
this brings me to another important point. people constantly criticize me for not believing in evolution, (among lots of other things).. so, i have deemed it important to state how i form my beliefs.. and maybe you will learn something and stop stupidly criticizing me, and perhaps change some of your beliefs
it goes thus: you start life as a child, and, as a child, you believe in nothing. then your parents teach you stuff, and, since they are your parents, you believe what they say, and that forms your beliefs. then, your friends start telling you stuff your parents havent yet told you about, and, since you are still young, you believe them, because they are your friends, and you still have no concept of what "confusion" "sources" and "lies" are. you now have a greater range of beliefs. then you as you grow older you see the tv, read the newspaper, read magazines, listen to radio and believe those... some people tho, never develop a very very importart and necessary skill which is the QUESTIONING of our beliefs and the sources thereof. some people never truly ask themselves "gee, i wonder if this is true?" to stuff they learn. i have a friend who people praised as smart, but this guy reads the newspaper (or sees the news) and does not question what it says!!!!! i cant believe it!! the newspaper could say "50 terrorists killed by nuclear blast at major airport" and it doesnt occur to him what a load of crock this could be!! and if somebody (ie, me) tells him "dood, that didnt happen.." he would become upset and consider me stupid for saying so. "man, i read it in the newspaper!! the proof is there!!" and nothing i could tell him would change his mind, he would just think less and less of me.. anyhoo, i believe strongly that if you dont question your beliefs, then they have no value. and for that reason, i question ALL my beliefs.. and i only set my mind on something until i have completely exhausted all doubt.
in short, i dont believe stuff until i have proven it to be true, whether its current events, scientific theory, or whatever, but most importantly RELIGION. my beliefs are constantly being questioned, and this makes me sure of their veracity. and i pity those who go through life without thinking things over and just believing what others tell them..
as amof, all my friends.. (the ones i can truly call my friends, ie, my good friends) are all smart/analytical.. they dont all believe the same things, and they dont all share the same beliefs i do.. but they do think about stuff, they do analyze it, and the are open to criticism and new ideas.. ohh, and that also reminds me, there is this one person, who thinks that whenever i dont agree with them, its that i am being closed minded to their ideas... its a cheap and stupid way to argue, and i hope this person reads this and realizes it.
and with that said, back to the original topic, dont believe something just cuz it says it comes from a "reliable" source.. im glad i realized this site was a parody before i got "shocked" at what it said..

[5:45:05]

a "bobersation" (pronounced "bob err say shun") perhaps?
bahb(01:37 AM) : know what's funny? how there's "directions" on how to cook pop tarts! haha
insaner(01:37 AM) : hahahah
bahb(01:37 AM) : like on the box
insaner(01:38 AM) :
1) place in oven
2) turn oven on
3) wait
4) turn oven off
5) remove poptarts
6) put those *nsync fans back, and remove the poptarts from the OVEN
7) eat poptarts
bahb(01:39 AM) : dood!!
bahb(01:39 AM) : you don't put poptarts in the OVEN
insaner(01:39 AM) : (hee hee)
bahb(01:39 AM) : you put them in the toaster
insaner(01:39 AM) : you know, it IS called a TOATER oven
insaner(01:39 AM) : didnt you?
bahb(01:39 AM) : not all of them are toaster "ovens"
bahb(01:40 AM) : in fact, i would say that most aren't
insaner(01:40 AM) : YES THEY ARE!! *cries*
bahb(01:40 AM) : NO!!! YOU ARE WRONG
insaner(01:40 AM) : *shakes fist at you*
insaner(01:41 AM) : ohh yeah???
insaner(01:42 AM) : well.. I MET THE GUY FROM INCUBUS!!! *tongues you*
bahb(01:42 AM) : YEAH!!
bahb(01:42 AM) : and i will PROVE it
insaner(01:42 AM) : errr.. i mean..
insaner(01:42 AM) : *sticks tongue out at you*

(...)

bahb(01:44 AM) :
toaster oven http://www.world-import.com/new_images/hb-oven.jpg
toaster http://www.geneseo.edu/~tobey/graphics/toaster.gif
toaster oven http://www.world-import.com/new_images/hb-oven.jpg
toaster http://www.geneseo.edu/~tobey/graphics/toaster.gif
toaster oven http://www.world-import.com/new_images/hb-oven.jpg
toaster http://www.geneseo.edu/~tobey/graphics/toaster.gif
toaster oven http://www.world-import.com/new_images/hb-oven.jpg
toaster http://www.geneseo.edu/~tobey/graphics/toaster.gif
toaster oven http://www.world-import.com/new_images/hb-oven.jpg
toaster http://www.geneseo.edu/~tobey/graphics/toaster.gif
toaster oven http://www.world-import.com/new_images/hb-oven.jpg
toaster http://www.geneseo.edu/~tobey/graphics/toaster.gif
toaster oven http://www.world-import.com/new_images/hb-oven.jpg
toaster http://www.geneseo.edu/~tobey/graphics/toaster.gif
insaner(01:45 AM) : ???
bahb(01:45 AM) : in the sense that if i am repeating it so that you will learn it more
insaner(01:45 AM) : *learns it once*
insaner(01:45 AM) : i dont think it werked
insaner(01:45 AM) : try again
bahb(01:46 AM) : ok. just keep clicking
insaner(01:46 AM) : OHHHHHH!!!!
insaner(01:46 AM) : *has learned it only once*
bahb(01:46 AM) : YEEEESSS!
insaner(01:46 AM) : it doesnt werks
bahb(01:46 AM) : crap!
insaner(01:46 AM) : i KNOW
bahb(01:46 AM) : oh no?
bahb(01:46 AM) : do you?
insaner(01:47 AM) : nop, sorry, im kleen
bahb(01:47 AM) : WHAT THE HELL DO I NEED PUBLICITY FOR?
insaner(01:48 AM) : *gives you plenty, and i do mean PLENTY of examples*
bahb(01:49 AM) : of what?
insaner(01:49 AM) : who?
insaner(01:50 AM) : high, my name is bob, how are you?
bahb(01:50 AM) : i am bob
insaner(01:50 AM) : *got a chill when he pressed "send".. im serious too..*
bahb(01:51 AM) : ???
insaner(01:51 AM) : i dont know.. it was weird
bahb(01:51 AM) : ???
insaner(01:52 AM) : i wrote the message and was waiting for you to answer the other.. so i didnt press send
bahb(01:52 AM) : yeah, cuz pushing "send" is such a weird thing to do
bahb(01:52 AM) : HAHAHA
insaner(01:52 AM) : and then when i did, i got a little chill
bahb(01:52 AM) : hahaha
bahb(01:52 AM) : double you tee eff?
insaner(01:52 AM) : it was like that button that when you press it, people die..

[5:29:10]

sure, you may say "but bob, isnt crystal meth illegal?!"
IT SURE IS!!!!

[5:04:48]

*creates a new motey*: i call it "the dance of fury"
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Wednesday, April 17, 2002

[22:23:52]

so yeah, i had seven dreams.. well they were all really cool (i could fly in one of them, jump and spin in the air in the other, and the others.. well.. yeah.. just.. ummm.. "special".. well the weirdness doesnt stop there.. ohhhh no.. its like theres NO end to it!!! ehh.. heheh... yeah, well, the thing is this morning i dreamt that i was with a friend near my old, old house (and by "old, old house" i mean the house i lived in, three houses ago.. if that makes any sense.. 'it does to me!!' 'ohh yeah, well thats cuz youre insane!!' 'ohh yeah??' 'yeah!!' '...' '...' 'no YOU are!!' *cries*...) when i lived in that other country.. *looks at the other country, still-faced* well, so we're going around in a car and then we found two of my friends from school, one of which is one of my "closer" friends, (and by "'closer' friend" i mean, this person never emails me or anything, and i have to harass them into giving me the time of day.. yeah, you know who you are!!.. ohh wait.. they dont read my blog.. estoopit!..) and the other was a friend i havent talked to in sooo long.. not as long the other friend who i was riding around with, tho.. from that person i havent heard in years!!! ... wait.. why am i rambling on about this?? *rolls eyes at himself* so anyhoo we are all in the car and then i was telling my friend (just guess whichever, im not even going to bother trying to explain which...) how i had had seven dreams the night before... (ie, the previous "sleeping period", as opposed to "waking period", which together complete one "sleep period", of which the "sleep cycle" is comprised) ... isnt that insane??? (as if you are still paying attention to my dream...) imagine!! it had only happened the day before, and already i was telling people about it in my dreams!! *looks around to find nobody listening to him.. whips out a gun and shoots himself in the head.. luckily, it was just a squirt gun.. but he still managed to squirt himself in the eye, and the water wasnt too kleen, so it got infected, and then he had to go to the doctor and the doctor said "gimme all your money and i fix you eye!" and then he noticed that it wasnt a "real" doctor but some strange "witch doctor" trying to scam him out of all his money, so he angered and yelled back at all of them.. "now youre going to learn what it is that i call pain!!" so he... ehhh... *dazed* 'where am i??' a friendly voice answers: 'you are trapped in a veeeery long motey..' 'ohh no! how will i get out??' 'there is one solution..' 'yes?' 'but it involves...' 'yes????' '...no wait.. i dont think you can get out of this one... just click "send" and pretend this never happened...' 'ok.. you mean this butto...

[3:09:11]

if you think im a freak, youre prolly right.. i just had an argument.. with myself over icq and icqlite.. man, i have issues... *shakes his head*

Tuesday, April 16, 2002

[0:39:03]

i told him to look both ways..
before he cross the road
but he dont listen..
because he's a toad
*harmonica music*

Monday, April 15, 2002

[1:04:55]

"hello, tech support, how may i help you?"

Sunday, April 14, 2002

[3:29:29]

sorry for the lack of posts... ive been working hard on some stuff.. inclusive the end of the million popups yes, you heard right!! also some improvements on the look and feel (ohh wait, you cant feel it, can you?) to the gallery of written art.. *wipes sweat off forehead and drinks a nice, cold, frothing glass of water* i "should" have that up by tomorrow, but we all know how that goes.. the vote script should be up within this month.. k peops, must sleep

Saturday, April 13, 2002

[20:14:24]

so guess who's home alone once again? thats right, my dad is off on another trip and the house has been left all to myself.. mmm... not that ill be doing anything "special" *looks away* but just.. well.. you know, ahh nevermind.. i have the house to myself, thats all that matters..

[0:05:54]

i just went to see "not another teen movie".. it was waaaay funny.. hahah.. i enjoyed it very much.. it was just that, most people in the theater didnt get certain jokes, so, as always, i was the only one laughing (like a hysterical idiot..) but ahh well.. you get used to it.. in any case, it was waaay funny.. it had some weirdness to it.. but that was the whole point.. so, yeah, you know.. ohh! and even my dad liked it.. so, yeah, go figure!

Thursday, April 11, 2002

[23:57:27]

AND, i cut my hair today.. and by "i cut my hair today" i mean "I cut my hair today" in the sense that my hair was long, i grabbed some scissors, did the forbidden dance, and my hair is now shorter.. not too much shorter tho, but shorter nonetheless.. i am now officially not blonde.. although my beard seems to disagree.. you see, my beard grows out orange (scribble that down you insaner fans, you!) like my dad's used to. from far away it still looks brown to black, due to the other hairs being dark. but now i have a few hairs growing out blonde!! im starting to think they might be "greys", but, double you tee eff question mark i am too young to be having grays! although, a classmate back in middle school used to have grays.. and he was about 15 years old!! (which, quick factoid, is due to a lack of calcium (or not) and is a sign of osteoporosis propensity.. and to those of you with lack-luster vocabulary, that means "you are likely to get a disease where your bones break easily")... and just how did i end up talking about that when i was originally talking about cutting my hair???? ohh dear...

[23:55:05]

i am also going to add a banner and remove all the popups.. why didnt i do it earlier? because its against my TOS, but its also against it that they should be pooping out THREE frigging popups.. so.. its time to kick them back.. in the groin!!!!

[23:53:11]

ok, to keep you "in the know".. i have been working on the vote script, and some other stuff, as well as a new flash area.. which should be up soon.. the vote script will prolly be out by soon, if not earlier..

[4:17:13]

just archived the blog.. how many months is that now?? SEVEN?? ohh dear..

[3:51:27]

ohh man have i been wanting to post that last one for soooo long.. that felt waaay good! mmm... *thinks about eating ice cream*

[3:41:31]

something very important that you should know about me is how big a pink freak i am.. ohh dood, i think she is the absolute coolest out there.. ohh dood, when i become famous one day and make millions selling the fruits of my labor, i vow to befriend pink and hang out with her.. this i promise you. and myself.. PINK is of the RULEZ!..
ps, any girl who wears a shade of red as her choice hair-color, has my thumbs up... in the sense that if your hair is purple or pink, or fire-red.. you are cool! if you dont.. well.. i pity you.. *smacks fist into palm* "i pity da foo', dudn have a shade of red as they's hair color!".. but pink (the artist) has a special place in my heart.. *nods in agreement*

[3:40:02]

im working hard on that vote script i promised... that should be up by next week at some point.. if i work on it these coming days.. ohh shut up!!

[0:58:18]

whoa! busy day today i guess.. and by "day", you know very well that i mean "sleeping period"... so yeah, it was a busy day today.. ill tell you about it in a sec..

Tuesday, April 9, 2002

[23:00:14]

this weekend's trip, part two:
so i'm on the train, talking to the guy, when i realize i have no passport on me, and i was to be crossing the border several times over the weekend.. not good news. so the guy tells me "ahh dont worry, it'll be alright, you can get this paper as a temporary travel document.." this relieved me, and we began sharing stories about brushes with the law.. and this guy used to live in L.A. so he had several to tell.. (rodney king anyone?) i told him some that had happened to me over my vacations over jan-feb.. but, lets face it, lets face the facts.. his were way better.. and by "better" i mean: "more interesting to hear" than mine.. ok, i'll tell you some.. one of them was when he was in a truck with some friends after going to a costume party (during halloween, i suppose..) and they had clown masks, and were sitting on the back of the truck. one of the friends had to go draw some money from the bank, so they stopped the truck outside the bank.. i'll allow you to imagine the rest of the story... another was that he had been working with some loud equipment at his garage and his eardrums had gone numb and he therefore could not hear.. apparently, some cop had been, from behind, trying to get him to stop, being unable to get his attention (obviously).. and you know how the LAPD is.. so the cop whips his gun out and tells him (something or other, which he couldnt hear) and since it was night, the cop proceeds to flash his flashlight.. right into his face so he raises his hand to cover his eyes and the cop thinks he's going to attack him, so he goes and takles him to the ground.. hahaha.. stupid cops.. being all aggressive..
so eventually i made it to where i had to get off. i get off, and well, this is one of the more dangerous cities in this country.. so i was a bit wary.. i started walking around looking for the girls.. but nothing.. so i went ahead to the place we were going to meet up.. they werent there, so i walked around a bit, and then this really decrepit-looking young guy approaches me and says something about aids or something, while blowing smoke in my face so i played dumb, (cuz one thing i understood, he wanted money from me, and he wasnt going to get it) then he goes and explains a bit.. "you know AIDS, the disease?" of course i know what it is, (and this guy looked like he had it too) and then he goes to say something about something and then got distracted and approached someone else.. i walked off.. word to the wise: if you want something from someone, especially money or something like that, do not blow smoke in their face while you ask for it.. or at all for that matter.. what an estupit..
eventually i hear a yell, and i look back, it was the girls! (yay!) they had a sign with my name on it.. you know, like they do at airports.. last name misspellt and everything!! hahah.. we then headed to where i would be crashing (and by "crashing" i mean "sleeping".. )
ill write up part 3 tomorrow

[22:13:17]

which is where i got that other post and this:

Customer: "When I dial your service, the system asks me some questions and then it kicks me off."
Tech Support: "What were the questions that it asked you?"
Customer: "I don't remember."
Tech Support: "Well, sir, if you don't remember what they were, I don't know what the problem is and I can't help you."
Customer: "So I need to call you and go through this again after seeing the questions again?"
Tech Support: "Yes."
Customer: "Can't I just keep you on while I call?"
Tech Support: "Is your modem on another line?"
Customer: "No, same line."
Tech Support: "Well, sir, you can't do it...it's like someone picking up the phone now and dialing while we are talking."
Customer: "Can I at least try?"

He tried. Twice. Ugh.

[22:10:24]

i sent this link to bob and he completely ignored me after that.. its good stuff, but i suggest you pass it on to your freinds at the end of a conversation.. *nods*

[19:42:50]

Customer: "When my computer boots up, all I get is a black screen that says, 'boot2/'."
Tech Support: "What operating system are you using?"
Customer: "I'm using Windows 98 and NT 4.0."
Tech Support: "Ok, I'm the Mac tech. The Windows tech is gone, but I can try to help you."
Customer: "Ok, what should I do? I've reformatted the hard drive and have fresh installs of both operating systems."
Tech Support: "Sir, have you put any cheese or mustard in your a drive?"
Customer: "What? Did you just ask me if I put cheese or mustard in my floppy drive?"
Tech Support: "Yeah, we've had that happen a lot lately."
Customer: (staring blankly at roommate, who was laughing uncontrollably on the floor) "I think I'll wait for the PC tech to get back. Thanks for the help." (click)

Monday, April 8, 2002

[22:00:46]

alright, time to recount the weekend at you. there isnt much to tell, so it wont be a long post.. prolly..
i woke up that morning facing a whole lot o' kleening to do. so i got to it.. (almost immediately) i had to juggle doing the laundry and kleening the house, vacuuming and kleening the bathroom.. all at the same time... and i had to do it quickly because i had to catch the train at 7pm.. and i had to tumble dry the clothes as well (where i usually hang them, but since noone was going to be here to bring them down, i had to tumble dry them so they would be dry) so all day it was pretty hectic around here until i got it all done with half an hour to go before i had to leave. so the time came and i headed to the station. then a little waiting (and a lot of chickies) later i got on the train and was on my way to a 3-hour journey to another country.
on the train there was a bunch of people who for some reason apparently knew each other (they werent travelling together but one saw the other recognized him and said "hey, i know you!!" and then they were all chatty..) apparently they were all watch-makers (i know.. i have never before met watchmakers in my life!) and the two sitting closest to me were about my age.. so it was even more strange.. so it was really interesting to hear these guys talking about watches and watch-making in the same way that some people talk about sports.. or those guys that i saw on my trip talking about classical music and orchestra directors.. that was also very interesting.. it makes you think what shallow lives some people lead thinking how only sports are worthy of discussing, and they see others who discuss watch-making and classical music movements as losers.. *makes a mr T voice* "i pity the fool, make fun of dose people" seriously, anyone who makes fun of anyone else for being different, in whatever sense, is a FOOL.. and defines loserdom.. but, i digress.
so the guys were talking about watch-making and all this other stuff, eventually i had to switch trains to the one which would take me to my final destination (*gets the chills*) on that train i sat next to one of the guys that had been on the previous ride, and he explained how one of the guys (that was my age) was attending this prestigious watch-making school and had made this watch that was apparently a well-known line of watches.. ohh and which is worth about thirty thousand dollars!!!!! my jaw dropped. so we were just talking about this and that and just then i realized i had left my passport at home. ohh dood, and i was going to be crossing the border the whole weekend!! (i have to go now, ill write the next part tomorrow)

[2:34:22]

if you are using winblows, then you might as well do something for the rest of the world and use your computer to find the cure for something... if you have not sold your soul, and are thus running a non-microsucks o/s, you may also help, click here and/or here.. not only will you be able to help the world, you will also be able to see how it is working (by means of computer generated simulations of what your computer is doing..) in any case, click on the links and see what i mean.. *makes a voice* do it fer the cheeeldren!!

Saturday, April 6, 2002

[16:29:09]

currently at some internet cafe.. have some stuff to tell, but first will wait to see how it all turns out... *looks to both sides and runs off*

Thursday, April 5, 2002

[0:13:05]

did i fail to mention how ive only slept 3 hours during this sleep-period and that i went with my sister missionary friends to hit the streets of the city to "missionize" at people? did i also mention how, apparently, i seemed to be better at it than they were? well, its alll true.. not to mention the fact that its past midnight and i have yet to clean the bathroom.. "ohh dear.."

Thursday, April 4, 2002

[23:58:01]

two things you may have noticed recently.
number A: how the who did i not post an april fools post?!?!?
ii) the times for april third are screwed up.. this is due to the fact that i use several browsers (and instances thereof) whereby i may begin writing a blog entry in one, get harassed by someone to chat at them, forget about this entry, start a new, unrelated entry in another browser (instance) (which therefore has a different time stamp on it) post it, and then later realize i hadnt finished the first, finish it, post it, and thus creating the impression that i travel through time when posting to my blog, just to freak all a' y'all out!! which i dont.. i cant stress that enough, so, i will enboldificate it of (insane inglish) i do not travel through time and post at different points in the space-time continuum just to freak all a' y'all out! there, i hope that clears that up for most of you...

[23:48:59]

and tomorrow i am going to visit a friend at the border, i will deliver bread and water and hope the guards dont shoot me.. hahah, no just kidding, who needs bread? (hahah..) anyhooze, ill be spending the weekend at my friend's (whose legal guardians are also out of the place) i will be the only guy, sorrounded by 3 young girls (and by "young" i mean "my aged"), for an entire weekend.. no parents.. imagine all the t.v. we'll watch!!! (yah, its a sad life, ahh well.. )

[22:48:59]

for the last week ive had this thing on my hand, at first i thought it was a rash, but i thought "what in the who?? ive never had a rash in my life!" the pores were seemingly dry and irritated (yelling all teh time, couldnt stand jokes.. etc..) i scratched one of them and wasnt all that painful. eventually i dropped it and went on doing the usual, and then i went to wash the dishes or something or other.. and "AHHH!!!" burnt my hand with the water. (whoa! i just realized something funny! read that last sentence out loud..) you know how when you shove your hands under the tap, and since you dont like cold water you usually turn the hot tap on first (which reminds me of a really screwed up country i visited recently) and when it gets too hot, you turn the cold water on accordingly.. but you know how sloooow your arm is to react/realize the water is scorching hot and by the time you whip your hand out of the way (spraying yourself quite nicely, if you are that kind of person..) your hand is already numb with pain? well, apparently this had been the cause of my apparent "whatever-this-thing-on-my-forehand-is".. yep, i have repeatedly been burning my hand over and over again (redundancy intended) on the hot water.. this due to the fact that i have been washing all my own dishes (as opposed to just drying them, since we split the task up) since my dad was gone for the week.. (ohhh, did i forget to mention that?? well, yes indeedles, i have been home alone all week, hence the menus and other new rarities in the blog..) in any case, as careless as i am, i have been slowly cooking the top layer of my epidermis covering my right forehand by shoving it straight into a nice scolding stream of boiling water. why my right hand? because, believe it or not, i am right-handed (write that one down, you avid fans, you!!) and i instinctively (read: "dumbly" or "thoughtlessly") use my right hand to test the water first while the left hand waits in childish anxiety at the side to be tag-teamed into battle with the faucet of death.. for which it is usually quite late. not to mention the fact that the poor right hand is never willing to be subject to such an ordeal, and would likely welcome the left's input as to the fact that it will soon suffer a scorching not easily born, and so avoid such an experience.. ahh yes, but left is much slower of thought, and poor right has to bear the burdens of his lesser endowed partner in life.. and.. uhh.. that explains my rash-looking thing.. (which is getting worse by the day..)

[3:14:11]

linux set to control new gen humanoid robot

Wednesday, April 3, 2002

[22:41:50]

ok, some news. i was recently contacted by a model who came across my site and wanted to know what in the who she was doing being mentioned here. i asked her if she wanted me to create a fan section here for her, to which she responded, and i quote: "I dont really like the idea being on a site of an insaner person" while this is quite saddening to me, she is right, i am insaner. i will try to get her to change her mind tho. ohh well.. it would have been cool to be the "official" fan site of some real model.. but, you know.. ohh well.. at least my friends are good-lookin' (*wink*)
in any case, its cool to see the popularity of my site growing.. to monstruous proportions!! ok, maybe not "monstruous".. but.. you know... ohh yeah, that reminds me.. i have to get the "fan clubs" areas started up! first two will be the "chris cho fan club" followed by the "incubus guy fan club" dont know fer sure what they will contain, although i have TONS of stuff i could slap onto the "chris cho fan club"... ohh boy do i have stuff... *nods*

[23:40:21]

man, today was a weird day.. im not quite sure why, but its been sort of weird, i woke up really late, and i had some weird dreams (which i cant remember right now) and i dont know.. its all been really weird..

Tuesday, April 2, 2002

[23:10:25]

my nose is running, my head hurts, ive been sneezing all day, and i am now going to sleep. thats what i get for kleening up my room. pff.. and im not even done yet! and my keyboard has never been this beige.. as opposed to.. you know, brown and stuff... it almost looks new... *blacks out*

[3:50:29]

ohh man, sorry i missed the last two days.. ive been sooo busy with all kinds of stuff.. i have some things to say, but, well, its 4am here and i really must get some sleep.. ps, i added a quiz.. be sure to check it out.. its waaay freaky.. im serious